The Ampersand

The Ampersand

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nobucky:

get to know me meme | [1/5] favorite male characters

➥ James ‘Bucky’ Barnes/The Winter Soldier, Marvel Cinematic Universe

This isn’t a back alley, Steve. It’s war! .”

(Source: norocket, via norocket)

No one had much faith in me because I was so young. They imagined a little brat with a flash-in-the-pan single. It was inevitable… Thankfully, I proved people wrong.” - Billie Piper

(Source: songinourhearts, via waiting-for-a-raggedy-man)

deducingbbcsherlock:

Their masks just drop. The instant Mary turns away, both their expressions change completely. For a fleeting moment, you can see their real feelings behind those fake smiles and empty promises. Bitterness, disgust, mistrust. 

I see two people playing one another. And what’s more, I think they both know it. Sherlock tried to lull Mary into a false sense of security with his “surgery” explanation. For whatever reason, he needed John to trust Mary, to stay with her, it was vital John stay just where I put him. But that doesn’t mean Sherlock trusts Mary. It means he needs Mary to think she’s gotten what she wants. He needs her to think she’s in control.

But Mary knows what he’s doing. I’m not John, I can tell when you’re fibbing. Mary quietly sat back and allowed Sherlock to “deduce” her, explain how she saved him by phoning the ambulance…not only does she never once offer a single piece of information herself, she never even confirms or denies what Sherlock says. She sits there, blankly, taking it in and calculating how best to use what he’s giving her to work with. 

Give Mary my love. Tell her she’s safe now.

I was so upset by that line initially. After all that, why did Sherlock want John to think he shot Magnussen for Mary? That he sacrificed his own life and became a murderer just for her? Then I realized…it’s not that he wants John to think that. It’s that he needs Mary to believe it. 

The giant gap of time between the Great Watson Domestic at 221B and Christmas makes it so difficult to really come up with a solid theory as to what everyone’s motives were in the end. Here’s what we do know:

1. Mary and John weren’t speaking during those months. (She says so.) It’s very plausible they weren’t living together.

2. Therefore it’s also plausible John temporarily returned to 221B. (Remember when he realized Sherlock had moved his chair back? “Mrs. Hudson, why does Sherlock think I’ll be moving back in?” Sherlock didn’t expect them to clear things up that evening. He knew John would need some time.)

3. Sherlock wasn’t twiddling his thumbs during those months. Whatever his plans were with Mary, he was preparing.

4. Sherlock learned from Reichenbach that protecting John is one thing, but lying to him is another. He isn’t going to do that again, not if he can help it. He shared his plans with John, at least to some extent. (Sherlock usually withholds a few steps. John’s used to that by now.)

5. “These are prepared words, Mary. I’ve chosen these words with care." There’s no wasted dialogue on this show. John says this for a reason. I believe that, for whatever reasons, Sherlock helped him choose these words. Sherlock needed Mary to believe John was going to stay with her. But that doesn’t necessarily mean that was John’s intention. All I’m saying is, at this point in time, John is telling Mary he wants to work it out, and Sherlock knows that’s what he’s doing. Therefore this is part of Sherlock’s plan. 

And personally, I don’t think he ultimately intended for John to stay with Mary, nor do I think John intends to. I truly believe Sherlock knows Mary didn’t perform surgery – that the reason she took a shot that was a probable, but not definite, kill was the nature of her paradoxical relationship with John. She will do anything not to lose John, but she needs the challenge of having to fight for him or she’ll get bored.

Sherlock knows the Watsons are doomed. Very likely John knows it too. I believe Sherlock intended on getting Magnussen’s files on Mary for the sake of John’s safety – removing any leverage Magnussen would have over Mary, and therefore John (the whole pressure point thing). And after that…who knows. But it was never going to be domestic bliss for the Watsons.

That’s why Sherlock’s decision to shoot Magnussen is so intensely heartbreaking. He realizes he’s made a huge mistake – there are no files to get. The only way to truly protect John is to become a murderer, essentially sacrifice his own life. So just like Reichenbach, Sherlock is put in a position where he has to make a huge sacrifice for John without telling him why. It’s too late to do anything else. Killing Magnussen means Mary will be safe, therefore John will be safe…but only if Mary is still convinced of Sherlock’s charade. And that, unfortunately, means convincing John, too.

I really believe that once Sherlock escaped the hospital, he had a long-term plan for how to handle Mary. But it went horribly wrong. Which is why, in this moment when they say goodbye at the plane, we briefly see his mask drop. It wasn’t supposed to happen this way. She wasn’t supposed to win.

And that’s also why John seems so off during the goodbye at the plane. Things went wrong at Appledore, but John simply can’t accept that it’s truly over. He’s waiting for one more miracle, anything. Sherlock doesn’t always fill John in on every step of his plans, and John’s used to this. He’s come to expect it. Sherlock jumps off buildings and survives. He knows where the off switch is on the bomb. In the end, Sherlock has it worked out. Always.

But John can’t ask what the trick is, not with Mary and Mycroft there, he just has to trust. So he does. He shakes Sherlock’s hand silently, watches him board the plane. Watches the plane take off. Starts to wonder if maybe he was wrong. Maybe there was no trick after all. It really is over. And then….miss me?

One more miracle.

one more miracle. just for him. 

excuse my rapid breakdown into insanity.

the fact of sherlock either going to jail or exile was no secret. in fact if anything it was expected. surely Sherlock Holmes: the great murderer didn’t go unnoticed. and it didnt happen in a day, there would have been enough time for someone to say wait sherlock cannot leave, and the only way that would happen is if something happened that it was believed sherlock and only sherlock could solve. But why would someone need sherlock to stay? if you take it at first glance like i had been until two minutes ago its because the writes wrote themselves into a hole. but what if:

  • the dance isnt over, the final problem still held over us and moriarty is really alive and for obvious reasons he cant have sherlock dead in six months at the hands of someone else
  • the more likely version of the above: whoever is closet to jim wants to finish the game for him
  • moriarty and moran are huge johnlock shippers and the feels were too much
  • anderson. he knew the joke the whole time (richard brooke in german, anderson speaks german) and maybe his guilt has forced him into desperate measures. 
  • or we know anderson is meant to represent the fans (the tardis theory on his walls? dont even tell me anderson doesnt have a tumblr) what if sherlock not being dead made him question everything, and he started looking. i dunno where exactly this could lead but i like anderson involvement.
  • irene adler. she ships it, and she had Moriarty connections.
  • Sherlock did it himself. the game is never over, my dear watson

excuse me while i question whether Sherlock set up Moriarty’s resurrection or if Moriarty is a huge johnlock shipper.

(via eldeweisse)

  • me: damn i need to save my money
  • me: *spends $200 in a week*

Bold what applies to you

lookingformytimelord:

Appearance:

  • I am 5’4 or shorter.
  • I have many scars. 
  • I tan easily.
  • I wish my hair was a different color.
  • I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
  • I have a tattoo.
  • I am self-conscious about my appearance. 
  • I have/I’ve had/I need braces.
  • I wear glasses/contacts
  • I’d get plastic surgery if it were safe, free, scar-free. 100%
  • I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
  • I have more than 2 piercings.
  • I have piercings in places besides my ears.
  • I have freckles.

Family/Home Life:

  • I’ve sworn at my parents.
  • I’ve been kicked out of the house. 
  • I have a sibling less than one year old.
  • I want to have kids someday. 
  • I have children.
  • I’ve lost a child.

Embarrassment:

  • I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
  • Disney movies still make me cry.
  • I’ve snorted while laughing
  • I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. 
  • I’ve glued my hands to something.
  • I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
  • I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health:

  • I was born with a disease/impairment.
  • I currently have a serious disease 
  • I’ve had stitches.
  • I’ve broken a bone.
  • I’ve had my tonsils removed.
  • I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
  • I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
  • I’ve had surgery.
  • I’ve had chicken pox.

Traveling:

  • I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
  • I’ve been to Canada. 
  • I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
  • I’ve been to Japan.
  • I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
  • I’ve been to Spain.
  • I’ve been to Africa.
  • I’ve been to Italy.
  • I’ve been to France. 
  • I’ve been to London.

Experiences:

  • I’ve been lost in my city.
  • I’ve seen a shooting star. 
  • I’ve wished on a shooting star.
  • I’ve seen a meteor shower.
  • I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
  • I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
  • I’ve been to a casino.
  • I’ve been skydiving.
  • I’ve gone skinny dipping.
  • I’ve played spin the bottle.
  • I’ve been skiing.
  • I’ve been in a play.
  • I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
  • I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
  • I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
  • I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
  • I’ve played chicken.
  • I’ve played a prank on someone.
  • I’ve ridden in a taxi.
  • I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
  • I’ve eaten sushi
  • I’ve been snowboarding

Relationships:

  • I’m single.
  • I’m in a relationship.
  • I’m engaged.
  • I’m married.
  • I’ve gone on a blind date. 
  • I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
  • I miss someone right now. 
  • I’ve been divorced.
  • I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. 

Sexuality:

  • I’ve had a crush on someone of the same gender.
  • I’ve kissed a member of the same gender. 
  • I’ve had sex with more than one person at the same time.
  • I am a cuddler. sometimes
  • I’ve been kissed in the rain.
  • I’ve had sex outdoors.
  • I’ve hugged a stranger.
  • I have kissed a stranger.
  • I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime:

  • I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
  • I have lied to my parents about where I am.
  • I’ve cheated while playing a game.
  • I’ve run a red light. 
  • I’ve been suspended from school
  • I’ve witnessed a crime. 
  • I’ve been in a fist fight. 
  • I’ve been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol:

  • I’ve consumed alcohol. 
  • I’ve smoked a cigarette.
  • I regularly drink.
  • I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
  • I’ve done hard drugs.
  • I’ve been addicted to an illegal drug.

(via tragicblackbutterfly)

pottsresilient:

tony dating steve and trying to make cheesy sexual innuendos but instead blurting out really romantic nonsense by accident

so steve will come up to him and be like ‘can i have a kiss??’ and tony goes ‘you can have anything you want’ and he means it to sound suggestive but it doesnt. it doesnt sound suggestive at all tony it sounds like youre ready to literally rip stars out of the sky if thats what steve wants

(via wnterschild)